forever alone
a deep sadness rises in my throat
where has she gone
forever alone
my life of regret and missed opportunity
I wonder could things be different
if I was another me
everyone else left intact yet I'm in shambles
my anger is over shadowed by my feelings of worthlessness
who exactly did I think I was
I am nothing
when my time is gone what will I have
no one who loved me nothing to leave behind
what a disgusting legacy
just the faint memory of a nobody
reaching for
nothing
at all
what sadness has betrayed me I thought of it with labored concentration
what exactly do I have to offer this world
just another life not lived
are there things I should be grateful for
where did I lose it how have I reverted
what parts of me do I still hate and pity
she returns to me
alone and insignificant
quiet and abandoned
I feed her only inebriations
she not for this world
far too fragile and emotional
we parted ways at
15
her funeral a celebration
she is not welcomed here
Yet she has returned with a vengence
I deserve this suffering I created it
my own
pay penance but to whom do I address this
my life
my sorrow
my love
truthfully I have nothing but fear left
happiness eludes me I'm not built for that
my reality is suffering
I thought if I believed I could change my purpose
but i can't hide from pain I manufacturer it _________________ I got good at being alone....when you left me my heat just stoped ~ The Gossip
Tue Apr 29, 2014 7:21 am
EverydayAngelKarie
Joined: 07 Mar 2007
Posts: 761
Location: Lakewood, CA
i can really feel the emotion in this. i feel it a lot. i can relate to almost every word. nice one, shay.
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