you can love me much, much more than that
but you think that I'm not right
You're not right for me or I'm not right for you?
we fucked up times a hundred
but in my dreams I loved you a hundred times a hundred
it's never enough.
from one fuck up to another, adieu.
Don't cry for the choices you make
I see why you do...
at least right here, right now
you are correct
I'm not right for you.
You're chicken shit; you stupid shit!
but still I love you so...
why?
why can't I let you go?!
There must be something very wrong with me
I shared my fantasies, my weakness--sorry I showed you that ugly sliver of me
'cause now I'll always believe I wasn't good enough
no! choose me instead!
me.
love me.
I can love you so...lovely...I can love you
I wish I could be your sledge hammer wielding prince charming
to crumble your skyhigh walls
I'd swim the moat with alligators and slay two-headed monsters
I'd climb the tower to your window just to have you despise me
turn your face away
send me away
I'm not right.
Don't tell me it's not personal
because it is
You know nothing about what I want from you or who you will turn out to be
I want to share orange slices and fall asleep on your terrace--that's all.
I want to be your cheerleader and watch you kick ass in everything you do.
ok, maybe you know...
don't go
don't wish me well
adieu, my darling.
I'll love you from the edges of my poisoned little heart, while you rape my dreams.
I'll push you to the very fringes of my brain, and there you'll be safe
til we're old
come find me again when there's nothing left to prove.
Love is always reckless, selfish, and raw
I wish you knew better, then you'd have chosen me
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Mon Jul 16, 2012 7:27 am
MysteryGirl Moderators
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I wish I could find the right words Cuppy to say just how much this write affected me....but I am as wordless lately for others, as I am in my own writing. Just let me say that it did....deeply
Don't tell me it's not personal
because it is
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Mon Jul 16, 2012 8:01 am
MdmPrez
Joined: 16 Oct 2007
Posts: 803
Location: US of A
Cups
It's great to see you here.
This makes me so angry, anger toward her.
You wrote this from the depths of your soul, it appears. It is filled with such feeling and emotion. It is so compelling.
And, YES, it is personal, how could it not be.
(((((((((((((( cups )))))))))))))))))))
MP
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Mon Jul 16, 2012 3:04 pm
cupcakes
Joined: 18 Sep 2005
Posts: 324
Location: NY
Thanks ladies. I wrote this thing late last night during the wee hours of broken hearts. It's a response to another poem, so some of the phrases are reworks from hers, but I think it can stand alone too.
love is so beastly. Is there an off switch?
((((mg)))) sending you well wishes through cyberspace. don't know what you're going through, but take care of yourself! thanks for your kind words
thanks ((((mdm)))) feels good to have someone on my side, to be angry on my behalf.
love,
la cUppy
Tue Jul 17, 2012 3:00 am
brachingritualz
Joined: 31 Mar 2007
Posts: 248
Wow, what great intensity and raw nerve. It screams hurt but also that you know what you're worth. Thanks for sharing it, I hope the release brought you some relief. _________________ shemovesme.wordpress.com
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